Archive for the ‘Thoughts’ Category

Once Again Feeling Like A Crap Mother

I am not saying I am a crap mother.  Just that I feel like one lately. Why? Because Adam has had 3 ear infections and 2 chest infections, 2 of each in the last month. And has had to take antibiotics for them. Why do I blame myself? Because I couldn’t breastfeed. Everyone (yeah, ya [...]

September 4, 2010  Tags:   Posted in: Adam, Being a Mummy, Thoughts  4 Comments

I Am Sure I Am Not

the first person to stare at their child and wonder.  Not just at how quickly they are growing or at the fact that they are a parent. But wonder at the magic that is the creation of life. About 22 months ago an egg met a sperm and 37 weeks 6 days later a full [...]

July 24, 2010   Posted in: Adam, Being a Mummy, Thoughts  No Comments

Man, What A Downer This Blog Has Been Lately

Just because I’m having a crap time doesn’t mean the rest of you have to suffer! So let’s see, what’s going well in Robyn’s life… She found her wedding ring.  In Simon’s sock drawer.  Which was behind her when she tripped. So the universe conspired as not only did the drawer have to be open, [...]

July 21, 2010   Posted in: Thoughts  One Comment

Reflections on a Year

Well…over 13 months. Anyway, as Adam and I gear up for our next big adventure, him starting day nursery and me having free time away from him on a regular basis, I’ve started to reflect on the past year. As this year has gone by there have been some truly horrible moments.  Moments when I’ve [...]

July 17, 2010   Posted in: Adam, Being a Mummy, Fibro, Mental Illness, Thoughts  One Comment

In Case Anyone Is Wondering

I didn’t go to Iain’s funeral. I am not sure I can explain why, except it didn’t feel right (and had nothing to do with not having anything to wear, honest).  I have been saying good bye to him a little bit each day and grieving in my own quiet way. If anyone would like [...]

July 16, 2010   Posted in: Thoughts  One Comment

I Just Keep Thinking…

I  just spoke to him Tuesday. How can he be dead? Iain Paul Kay was my friend who died suddenly last week. I’ve known Iain for about 5 or so years, through our mutual work for the Science Park.  Iain worked in Network Sales for Atlas-Communications. Since I’ve been on maternity leave, and now that [...]

July 12, 2010   Posted in: Thoughts  3 Comments

Now Let’s Talk About The Copenhagen Summit, Shall We?

Let me start this particular blog post by acknowledging two things: – Thing 1 – Simon  and I do not recycle.  This is because until about a year ago recycling was not made available to the apartment dwellers at Belfast City Centre.  Then, once it was, we discovered that our buildings recycling room was locked [...]

December 6, 2009   Posted in: Thoughts, daily  3 Comments

So, Let’s Talk About Health Care…

Most of you may not know, but I used to work for Kaiser Permanente in California.  To be specific, I worked for KP-IT, which is exactly what it sounds like KP’s information technology division. In fact, I just found out that the project I was assigned to, which was called something like NIS (National Insurance [...]

December 5, 2009   Posted in: Belfast, Ex-Pat, Thoughts, daily  4 Comments

So, Here I Am…

over half way to 41.  And I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, in between nappy changing, cuddling, soothing and playing, about what exactly that means to me. I remember approaching 40 with no more anxiety than any other birthday.  Well, I was 5 months pregnant at that point, so any anxiety I was having [...]

October 15, 2009   Posted in: Thoughts, daily  No Comments

I May Have Ranted About This Before

but I am going to rant about it again! I take two meds for my mental health issues; Xanax, for anxiety and Trazodone for depression. Each of these meds has been mentioned on TV shows I watch.  And misrepresented. Trazodone was mentioned on NCIS once.  Abbey claimed that someone on it would be so knocked [...]

September 19, 2009   Posted in: Mental Illness, Thoughts, daily  No Comments